My heart hurts.
Remind me not to start looking at the cost of t and top surgery in the middle of the night..
My heart feels heavy.
I really need to learn to not get so angry at myself
Things to remember:
•acknowledge I’m being triggered
•be kind to myself; leave a situation if I need to
•tell someone I’m having trouble
•don’t sit in it and say things like “it’s fine”, “I should be over it” or become angry that I’m anxious or scared or having flashbacks
•easy does it!
•it’s okay not to feel okay
•be proud of my accomplishments
I got a haircut.
Tiny fairy door.
I’m afraid to go to sleep because I know the nightmares will come tonight.
Sunrise from my apartment
I can’t breathe
It sort of feels like I’m walking around with a knife in my heart..
I have slept 7 hours in the last 60 hours. I have no idea what’s going on or why I’m not tired.
It’s day 13 of being stranded in the middle of nowhere with the family. Chocolate levels are low, tensions are high. There has been no level 10 fights but they brim beneath the surface. There is one day left. Chances of survival seem bright.
Feels like there’s ants underneath my skin.