Things to remember:
•acknowledge I’m being triggered
•be kind to myself; leave a situation if I need to
•tell someone I’m having trouble
•don’t sit in it and say things like “it’s fine”, “I should be over it” or become angry that I’m anxious or scared or having flashbacks
•easy does it!
•it’s okay not to feel okay
•be proud of my accomplishments
I’m afraid to go to sleep because I know the nightmares will come tonight.
Sunrise from my apartment
I can’t breathe
It sort of feels like I’m walking around with a knife in my heart..
I have slept 7 hours in the last 60 hours. I have no idea what’s going on or why I’m not tired.
It’s day 13 of being stranded in the middle of nowhere with the family. Chocolate levels are low, tensions are high. There has been no level 10 fights but they brim beneath the surface. There is one day left. Chances of survival seem bright.
Feels like there’s ants underneath my skin.
I need a hug.
How to candidly and honestly talk to people about the emotions I’m feeling with out being drunk?
My head feels heavy and my heart feels empty.
It sorta feels like all the work I’ve done to improve myself and how I feel about my self has been completely undone in eleven days by the way she speaks to me and treats me.
It astounds me that someone I’m unrelated to and have known for two years can understand me and be such an amazing mum to me. I don’t know what I’d do without her.